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Name: Nicole
Country: Canada
Metro: Kelowna
Birthday: 10/29/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: GOD,Music, playing guitar, singing, SURFING!!, soccer, songwriting, Mountain Biking, going to coffee shops, Busking, Traveling, watching people!!, photography, and hiking.
Expertise: Falling asleep during movies, Hurting myself (injuries), eating chocolate, singing in the shower, taking to long to get ready, undecisive, daydrifting, laughing to much or to little, and giving hugs.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
MSN: nicolemoyneur@hotmail.com
Member Since:
11/24/2004
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| On my bones...... By Kendall Payne
What these years have brought me
What these years have taught me
Heartache and fame
A chance to change
A Hope to be stronger
That beauty can smolder
A stage and a curtain
That nothing's for certain
Oh these years have been hard on my bones
What this world has brought me
What this world has taught me
Senseless spinning
Never tie instead of winning
Ice cream for licking
The clock's always ticking
No one is free
Someone must have a key
Oh this world has been hard on my bones
All this time
I'd been seeking my own
Oh this road has been hard on my bones
What this love has brought me
What this love has taught me
Patience in battle
Who's in the saddle?
Joy and dispair
That I really do care
Uncertain desire
The risk going higher
Yeah this love has been hard on my bones
What this God has brought me
What this God has taught me
Passion and grace
How to stand in one space
Laughing at lillies
What truly fufils me
Death on a cross
It was I that was lost
Oh this God has been life to these bones
Oh this God has been life to my bones
Yes this God has been life to my bones
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| What's new in the life of Nicole.....
Hmmmm.... well my knee is coming along quite well. I kinda can jog right now, and I'm doing a bit of biking. But to be honest I sure do look like those crazy fools who look funny when they run. Do you know the type I'm talking about? It's either run super smooth, gliding, and being graceful. Or it's those people who don't even know where to put there arms when they run. I'm the kind of jogger who has a gimp knee so I have this weird sway when I walk or Jog. Oh well. At least I don't look like those crazy POWER walkers. I remember at my old home growing up there use to be these ladies that would power walk everyday.. and they looked... ahhh... well all I can say is that they were sure giving it!!
What else is new in my life...? I've been trying to use the gifts that God has given me through music. I've been playing the Jembe and the guitar on the worship team at church. I'm still the shift supervisor at Stabucks which is okay, but I don't feel used very much. So.. I did end up applying at the mustard seed two weeks ago but havnt heard back from they yet.
But to be honest... I do feel like the "typical" North American right now, and I'm not liking it. I feel like we have this mind set of wanting to have a comfortable life.
Here's our life laid out.
Go to High School
Then Go to College/University
Finish School
Find the Love of your life
Get married, and have kids.
Is this what God intended our life to be lived about? I know I know, I'm not being realistic. I do think of having those things, but I do think of other things as well. There's this couple that go to my church, and they decided to follow Gods will by selling there house and all there belongings and move to Kenya. This couple has been building relationships with the Kenyans, helping out in the hospital as a nurse, doing maitnance, and they also helped out a homeless boy get connected into school. To me... that is a life worth lived.
To many people lately have been nagging at me to finish school. I've done two years of my Bach. of arts in music at Ambrose University College. I have two years left. I do want to finish those two years, and I tend to do further studies. I'm just getting sick of people wanting me to hurry up on life itself. I'm making my way day by day through life, and god is leading me as to where to go. I don't want my life to be to structured. School, marriage, babies. I want a life where I know I can throw everything down, and go where ever God is wanting to take me. If it means working at Starbucks as a shift supervisor, or living in Mexico for a year working at an Orphanage, or getting a job in oil and gas and witnessing to the business people, moving to regina, or even being content with where I am right now.
I feel as though I'm just blabbing right now. I should be hitting the sack soon........
I do want a good life. Not a fairy tale. And not some story taken from a movie.. aka chick flick. I want a life worth living. A life devoted to God, and open for his calling wherever he wants to take me. I know that life will be hard, and there will be ups and downs, distractions, and times where I will want to give up. All I need to know to keep on keeping on is that I'm living a life for God.. not for myself.
I'm gonna go to sleep now....
Oh yeah one more thing. Where I work at Starbucks, right beside me there's this man that shines shoes for a living. He shines the Business "peeps" shoes. He's from Kenya living in Canada. He has a dream to become the President of Kenya. So we talk here and there when we have the time. What an amazing man. I found out he's Christian, which is pretty sweet. So today he was telling me how he's making a list for people to sign up.. who want to go to Kenya for a year and help out. Leave there home in Canada. Save up money. He said he will provide a place to stay for free, and he dreams of having people help out his people. Isn't that wicked cool!!! He told me he's gonna put my name on his list.
Well I'm closing my blinds and going to sleep.. The breeze feels nice through my window right now.
Peace.
-Nicole | | |
| I'm spending time in the Beautiful Okanagan Valley right now. I decided to come down to visit my mom, and also say goodbye to my house that I have lived in for about 23 years. My mom is selling my (Our) beautiful home I grew up in, and it hurts my heart so bad. There is so much memories to remember in this house. The good, bad and the ugly!!! I guess I shouldn't hold on to such materialist things in life right. When I die, they for sure are not coming up to heaven with me!!! Unless God has something else in mind???? You never know with the BIg guy up there?!!!
Yeah so I've been spending time with my momma.. trying to see some of my friends, and starting to throw out things that I have kept under neath our stairs.. so that when my mom moves so won't be left with all my crap!!
Also more news on my knee. I actually have to go back to the hospital.... get my knee frozen, and put under, so that my surgeon can stretch out my knee. Right now my knee is not bending properly, and is not strightening. My surgeon doesn't know why... she thought maybe there is some tissue that didn't heal right and is blocking my bone from bending right. Or my knee is just really stiff? Who knows. It kinda sucks being a gimp, but I'm really looking forward to the day when I can run on the soccer field once again.
Nothing else is new with me. I'm gonna apply for a job at The Mustard Seed Homeless Shelter. I have a passion for the homeless and the hurting, and I would love to be a helping hand there. I'm also reading an amazing book right now called "THE IRRESISTIBLE REVOLUTION living as an ordinary radical". It's an amazing book filled with things on the life as a Christian, and how you go about (how eveyrone) goes about living there life.
I have two big dreams right now.
#1. I want to have a helping hand and go to Calcutta India at Missionaries of Charity, where Mother Teresa helped out with the homeless, orphanages, medical clinics, and lepers. What an amazing experience that would be to help out there, and see God at work.
#2. Also this is kinda a selfish dream.. but I would love to Go on a Kayaking Voyage along the West Coast of Vancouver Island.
Well I have dreams. I just have to dream big, and make those dreams come true. Cause I know they can.
Happy Easter. He risen...... he has risen indeed. | | |
| What's new in the world of Nicole.....?
Well I had knee surgery on Nov. 14. That was sure exciting. My favorite part of it all was being able to have morphine injected into me. What a feeling that was!!!!! After that my plan was to go home for a month in Beautiful British Columbia....but it ended up just being a week and a half. Suckey Deal. I did get to see some friends, but that's really it. Then I went to Edmonton to spend Christmas with my sister, brother-in-law, niece, nephew, and momma. Oh and I got to see my dad to. Then I decided to head back to Calgary so I could focus on re-gaining strength in my knee, plus save money in medical with my physio. In B.C. my physio costed $55 dollars for one visit. But here in Calgary it's free. That's why I'm back in Calgary. Oh well. That's life I guess.
As of the New year. I hope that 2008 is way better then the last two years. The past two years was an emotional reck for me. Maybe no one noticed that, but for me it was. My family thought I was depressed, anorexic, or just supper emotional. Well for me growing up I bottled everything up inside and NEVER delt with my pain. Especially my pain with my parents and there divorce. That one hit me hard. Maybe these past two years have been good because I've finally been able to deal and express my pain? I've finally been able to cry a good cry. What's wrong with that? I guess it is hard though to see someone in your family not happy right? Everyone has pain right? We just need to know how to deal with it properly. In the right way.
For me I think to deal with things in our life we need to open our blinds in our dark bedroom. Let the light in. Let God in, and let God take our problems and lay it down at his feet. Let God know that "I" can't do this without him. I NEED his help. And to me.. that's the only way to deal with our HARD situations in life. Not asking our friend to change us, and heal us. Not asking our boyfriend or girlfriend to make a difference. It's Only God that can change us, and it's only God that can heal me from my pain of my parents divorce, my problem with jealously, my problem with controlling the situation. We all have our ups and downs in life, we just need the proper source to heal our broken heart.
Well the New Year is here. I hope it's a good one. I hope yours is to. Psalms 121. It's a good one.
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| Tonight was a good night. I walked through the bridge along bow river, and took the path straight to Kensington. Even though it was getting late..... 11:30pm hit.. I still had to hit the streets, breath the sweet air, and have a second to think about life itself. I thought about my past, I thought about the good- bad- and the ugly, and I thought about the present. Then my mind started getting smothered with to much to think about, so I hit the c-train, and headed home to my warm bed. Sweet dreams to all. Don't think about life to hard, it's definitely not worth the worrying!!
If things go wrong, don't go with them. ~Roger Babson
Every evening I turn my worries over to God. He's going to be up all night anyway. ~Mary C. Crowley
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